Glow baby, glow

So there is this song by Britt Nicole called Glow. I was listening to it the other day and the line goes "theres no hiding, no denying cuz we're not ashamed, with our heads up in the air, boys and girls they stop and stare..... we're gonna glow." Okay now hold that thought. I have been reading these books by Ted Dekker...they are amazing. Black, Red and White. In the books Earth came to an end with a tribulation period and all and God decides to start again, but this time Good and Evil is visible on the outside and its not just inside you, its visible to everyone. It is a really terrible skin disease that makes you look terrible and your joints are in pain and all that. The Firstborn gets tricked by Satan, and history repeats. Its goes through alot before we get to this point but in the end you have the people without the disease are like the Jews and there is another "Jesus" and well..... you just have to read it.
It made me wonder. How much harder would it be for us Christians if we were so clearly defined as Christians..... would you try to cover it up? In the books the people with the disease don't see it as a disease. They think there is something sick about not having it. They murder all the "albinos" they can find.
I know we all want to fit in. Its hard when you are different especially as a kid and a teen. We all want acceptance from our friends and peers. So much so that I feel that sometimes I try to hide my "glow"
That is wrong.
We shouldn't hide our glow. We should be proud of it. Can you imagine if we had an actual glow? Or if all the sins of people were clearly defined on their bodies and we as followers of Jesus Christ were clearly shown as pure? It would mean we didn't sin, but it would mean that God can't see them anymore.
I highly recommend the books. Even if you aren't a believer, they are a really good piece of fiction.
I have to warn you, I cried.

Merry Christmas :)

Pretty is....

First, a story.
A couple of years ago I overheard my little sister and her friend talking. The subject of discussion was .... well, they were rating people's looks, then personalities on a scale of one to ten. Her friend said, "M.(thats me) is a 10(in looks)"My sister agreed. Now this story isn't to brag that I'm attractive, not at all. I thought about what they said and realized something. While I'm flattered, I'm also a little sad. If my face is a 10, then my personality is going to be lower than that. I would rather have a better personality then a really pretty face. Ever since I was little people have told me I'm beautiful. I do appreciate it, I like being pretty, but being pretty is not enough. I don't think anyone has ever given me a compliment about my personality. My sister and brother are the funny ones. I'm the pretty one. Oh and I've heard I'm diginified. I don't want you to think I'm complaining, because I'm not. I don't have the natural talent for making people laugh, I'm not super sweet, and I'm a bit more reserved. Thats just who I am. The only reason I'm explaining this is to let you know that beauty is NOT everything. In fact, its only a small part. People won't like you just because you are pretty. Yes, boys will like you, but you know what? They won't really like you. They like your face. I don't know about you, but I want a guy to like me not because of my face, but because of my personality.
My Grandma used to tell me "pretty is as pretty does". I don't think she took that to heart herself, but its a very true statement. I know that when I get to know people and really like their personalities I think they are pretty. Even if when I first meet them and I think they are okay-looking, if they are pretty people in the inside, in my eyes it affects the outside.
God has a very similar view on it. "Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30
So lessons you should learn from this-
Beauty is subjective. Beauty is individual and unique. Beauty is as beauty does.
True beauty comes from inside.

So beautiful

So today is the birthday of my gorgeous friend S.Sharp. She is 17. I'm making her a cd, with random songs she just might like. Its also her Christmas present since its highly unlikley I will see her then.

Just a thought. Its sorta rambling so I'm sorry if its hard to follow.

We are God's creations, made beautiful by his ever-skilled hands. Beautiful..... I can hear you going "well, some of us at least". I have been guilty of that all the time so you aren't alone :) I have a question. God made the flowers, all kinds. Am I right? Now, who has ever said the Tiger Lily would be so much more beautiful if it didn't have those spots? Or the Black-Eyes Susans would be better if the the middle wasn't black? Ummmmmmmm I have never heard anyone say that. So why do we not question the beauty of unique flowers? We question whether our freckles are beautiful. We question whether our hair is the right shade of brown to be pretty. We question if we are really beautiful if we have a crooked nose. If you are taller than 5'6 you probably feel awkward and wish that you could shrink to be the same size as all the cute, petite girls. I would know, half the time I feel the same exact way. When you are taller than 5'6 its pretty hard to feel cute. Go look up pics, full length of Taylor Swift. The girl is 5'11 and she completely rocks that. SHE WEARS HEELS!!!! She has crazy-out-of control curly hair and she rocks that. She isn't ashamed to look like how God made her. Thats pretty fantastic. Another thing. You just might have a favorite flower. Or you might prefer sunrises over sunsets. You might think that grass is prettier than the beach. That is a matter of taste. There are some people who won't find you attractive, they will think someone else is more beautiful. Thats okay.
When you like roses better then daisys it doesn't make the daisys ugly, it makes them different. Beauty is unique.

So again, I have a question. When you question your beauty, are you criticzing the product, the work of art, or are you criticizing the Creator?

"We are a beauty that's our own, and we are, and we are SO BEAUTIFUL"

My next post I'll have something to say about how beauty doesn't really matter anyways. :D

Spoken For

Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
[CHORUS:]Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"My heart is spoken for
Now I have a peace
I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
[CHORUS:]Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for
By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully yours
And I have been redeemed
By you that spoke to me
Now I am spoken for

This a beautiful song. Its one of my favorites!!!!

Oh the drama and fun.

I know I haven't blogged in awhile so for all you waiting patiently, I'm sorry :)
Anyways.
Thanksgiving was great..... I love seeing that side of the family. They are the best. Its hard to even explaing how much I love them all.
Sunday I went sledding with the Youth Group. J.Halb(Bestieforlife). and I had one epic fail of a time. Can you say wipe-out? I have the biggest bruise on my butt and I'm extremely sore. J.Halb at one point flipped over my head and almost took my head off with her leg.


I really love my chemistry buddies. A.Perry and I now have nicknames. Mine is Zippy, because I never keep my mouth shup and A.Perry..... well his is "Sugar" but I think he would kill me if I put the reason up on the internet. S.Sharp and A. Lochner don't have nicknames yet because well, they just aren't cool enough, but we will work on it, right guys? Haha.
CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! Its coming!!! I love this season. Its awesome!!!! We have already had snow which is totally crazy.




So this guy. J.Tiff I think he deserves part of this post because he has been such a jerk. For real.
In short, he accused me of lying about some chick V.T. to make her look bad. (I have known her for years and was always pretty sure she didn't like me...there was pretty obvious evidence, but I think she may have gotten over it in the past year.) It wasn't a lie, I thought it was the truth and I didn't think it wasn't mean. She told him it wasn't true and that she didn't have a problem with me, I must be the one with the problem, he believed her and went off on me. He has known her for eight weeks and me for years. He has been my friend for a large portion of that time. So after he went off on me, he then proceeded to tell me how I was leading him on for attention and how I broke his heart..... Apparently he has seriously liked me for two years. I only knew about it recently but I couldn't tell him I didn't like him because he never told me he liked me! It would have been wierd. It went on for a couple of weeks. He finally sent me the last one. I didn't respond, there was nothing left to say. Well, that was about two weeks ago. So Friday night I found from someone that J.Tiff told them a couple weeks back that he liked V.T. Well, then. I wasn't sure I quite believed it until yesterday when I found out from FB that they are"now in a relationship". Wow. So all that time he was busting on me for breaking his heart and leading him on and everything else, he actually liked someone else. Oh and you know what else? He told me this "Loyalty and confidence, strong faith of course, complete and utter devotion to you and God; I would have been all these things. I was all these. I guess it didn't mean much to you to you " Loyal???? You like some other girl while liking me? What in the world? I don't define that as loyalty. What would he have done if I decided I like him and wanted to be with him? Gone on liking her too???? Now let me make this clear. I am in no way upset that he is going out with her. It just makes me mad that he made me go through all that drama, not because he had sincere feelings for me, but for some reason I don't understand. He lied to me and I really don't like that. So there you go. Setting the record straight. And if YOU happen to be reading this...... good luck with your relationship. I mean that sincerely, I'm sorry our friendship was ruined.