Glow baby, glow

So there is this song by Britt Nicole called Glow. I was listening to it the other day and the line goes "theres no hiding, no denying cuz we're not ashamed, with our heads up in the air, boys and girls they stop and stare..... we're gonna glow." Okay now hold that thought. I have been reading these books by Ted Dekker...they are amazing. Black, Red and White. In the books Earth came to an end with a tribulation period and all and God decides to start again, but this time Good and Evil is visible on the outside and its not just inside you, its visible to everyone. It is a really terrible skin disease that makes you look terrible and your joints are in pain and all that. The Firstborn gets tricked by Satan, and history repeats. Its goes through alot before we get to this point but in the end you have the people without the disease are like the Jews and there is another "Jesus" and well..... you just have to read it.
It made me wonder. How much harder would it be for us Christians if we were so clearly defined as Christians..... would you try to cover it up? In the books the people with the disease don't see it as a disease. They think there is something sick about not having it. They murder all the "albinos" they can find.
I know we all want to fit in. Its hard when you are different especially as a kid and a teen. We all want acceptance from our friends and peers. So much so that I feel that sometimes I try to hide my "glow"
That is wrong.
We shouldn't hide our glow. We should be proud of it. Can you imagine if we had an actual glow? Or if all the sins of people were clearly defined on their bodies and we as followers of Jesus Christ were clearly shown as pure? It would mean we didn't sin, but it would mean that God can't see them anymore.
I highly recommend the books. Even if you aren't a believer, they are a really good piece of fiction.
I have to warn you, I cried.

Merry Christmas :)

Pretty is....

First, a story.
A couple of years ago I overheard my little sister and her friend talking. The subject of discussion was .... well, they were rating people's looks, then personalities on a scale of one to ten. Her friend said, "M.(thats me) is a 10(in looks)"My sister agreed. Now this story isn't to brag that I'm attractive, not at all. I thought about what they said and realized something. While I'm flattered, I'm also a little sad. If my face is a 10, then my personality is going to be lower than that. I would rather have a better personality then a really pretty face. Ever since I was little people have told me I'm beautiful. I do appreciate it, I like being pretty, but being pretty is not enough. I don't think anyone has ever given me a compliment about my personality. My sister and brother are the funny ones. I'm the pretty one. Oh and I've heard I'm diginified. I don't want you to think I'm complaining, because I'm not. I don't have the natural talent for making people laugh, I'm not super sweet, and I'm a bit more reserved. Thats just who I am. The only reason I'm explaining this is to let you know that beauty is NOT everything. In fact, its only a small part. People won't like you just because you are pretty. Yes, boys will like you, but you know what? They won't really like you. They like your face. I don't know about you, but I want a guy to like me not because of my face, but because of my personality.
My Grandma used to tell me "pretty is as pretty does". I don't think she took that to heart herself, but its a very true statement. I know that when I get to know people and really like their personalities I think they are pretty. Even if when I first meet them and I think they are okay-looking, if they are pretty people in the inside, in my eyes it affects the outside.
God has a very similar view on it. "Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30
So lessons you should learn from this-
Beauty is subjective. Beauty is individual and unique. Beauty is as beauty does.
True beauty comes from inside.

So beautiful

So today is the birthday of my gorgeous friend S.Sharp. She is 17. I'm making her a cd, with random songs she just might like. Its also her Christmas present since its highly unlikley I will see her then.

Just a thought. Its sorta rambling so I'm sorry if its hard to follow.

We are God's creations, made beautiful by his ever-skilled hands. Beautiful..... I can hear you going "well, some of us at least". I have been guilty of that all the time so you aren't alone :) I have a question. God made the flowers, all kinds. Am I right? Now, who has ever said the Tiger Lily would be so much more beautiful if it didn't have those spots? Or the Black-Eyes Susans would be better if the the middle wasn't black? Ummmmmmmm I have never heard anyone say that. So why do we not question the beauty of unique flowers? We question whether our freckles are beautiful. We question whether our hair is the right shade of brown to be pretty. We question if we are really beautiful if we have a crooked nose. If you are taller than 5'6 you probably feel awkward and wish that you could shrink to be the same size as all the cute, petite girls. I would know, half the time I feel the same exact way. When you are taller than 5'6 its pretty hard to feel cute. Go look up pics, full length of Taylor Swift. The girl is 5'11 and she completely rocks that. SHE WEARS HEELS!!!! She has crazy-out-of control curly hair and she rocks that. She isn't ashamed to look like how God made her. Thats pretty fantastic. Another thing. You just might have a favorite flower. Or you might prefer sunrises over sunsets. You might think that grass is prettier than the beach. That is a matter of taste. There are some people who won't find you attractive, they will think someone else is more beautiful. Thats okay.
When you like roses better then daisys it doesn't make the daisys ugly, it makes them different. Beauty is unique.

So again, I have a question. When you question your beauty, are you criticzing the product, the work of art, or are you criticizing the Creator?

"We are a beauty that's our own, and we are, and we are SO BEAUTIFUL"

My next post I'll have something to say about how beauty doesn't really matter anyways. :D

Spoken For

Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
[CHORUS:]Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"My heart is spoken for
Now I have a peace
I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
[CHORUS:]Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for
By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully yours
And I have been redeemed
By you that spoke to me
Now I am spoken for

This a beautiful song. Its one of my favorites!!!!

Oh the drama and fun.

I know I haven't blogged in awhile so for all you waiting patiently, I'm sorry :)
Anyways.
Thanksgiving was great..... I love seeing that side of the family. They are the best. Its hard to even explaing how much I love them all.
Sunday I went sledding with the Youth Group. J.Halb(Bestieforlife). and I had one epic fail of a time. Can you say wipe-out? I have the biggest bruise on my butt and I'm extremely sore. J.Halb at one point flipped over my head and almost took my head off with her leg.


I really love my chemistry buddies. A.Perry and I now have nicknames. Mine is Zippy, because I never keep my mouth shup and A.Perry..... well his is "Sugar" but I think he would kill me if I put the reason up on the internet. S.Sharp and A. Lochner don't have nicknames yet because well, they just aren't cool enough, but we will work on it, right guys? Haha.
CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! Its coming!!! I love this season. Its awesome!!!! We have already had snow which is totally crazy.




So this guy. J.Tiff I think he deserves part of this post because he has been such a jerk. For real.
In short, he accused me of lying about some chick V.T. to make her look bad. (I have known her for years and was always pretty sure she didn't like me...there was pretty obvious evidence, but I think she may have gotten over it in the past year.) It wasn't a lie, I thought it was the truth and I didn't think it wasn't mean. She told him it wasn't true and that she didn't have a problem with me, I must be the one with the problem, he believed her and went off on me. He has known her for eight weeks and me for years. He has been my friend for a large portion of that time. So after he went off on me, he then proceeded to tell me how I was leading him on for attention and how I broke his heart..... Apparently he has seriously liked me for two years. I only knew about it recently but I couldn't tell him I didn't like him because he never told me he liked me! It would have been wierd. It went on for a couple of weeks. He finally sent me the last one. I didn't respond, there was nothing left to say. Well, that was about two weeks ago. So Friday night I found from someone that J.Tiff told them a couple weeks back that he liked V.T. Well, then. I wasn't sure I quite believed it until yesterday when I found out from FB that they are"now in a relationship". Wow. So all that time he was busting on me for breaking his heart and leading him on and everything else, he actually liked someone else. Oh and you know what else? He told me this "Loyalty and confidence, strong faith of course, complete and utter devotion to you and God; I would have been all these things. I was all these. I guess it didn't mean much to you to you " Loyal???? You like some other girl while liking me? What in the world? I don't define that as loyalty. What would he have done if I decided I like him and wanted to be with him? Gone on liking her too???? Now let me make this clear. I am in no way upset that he is going out with her. It just makes me mad that he made me go through all that drama, not because he had sincere feelings for me, but for some reason I don't understand. He lied to me and I really don't like that. So there you go. Setting the record straight. And if YOU happen to be reading this...... good luck with your relationship. I mean that sincerely, I'm sorry our friendship was ruined.

More New Moon and little bit of crazyness

So I know, I can't resist.
Read this, its a review of the midnight showing.
"Finally, New Moon begins. The Summit Entertainment logo flashes onscreen. People cheer. (Let’s be fair: we used to do the same thing for the LucasFilm logo.) The first couple of scenes are greeted with hushed silence, as if the audience can barely believe they’re finally watching this movie. Then Rob Pattinson strolls toward the camera through the school parking lot, in slow-motion. Loud applause, cheering, and I think I hear someone crying.
Curiously, though, that first scene is the peak of the night for Edward. As pretty much everyone knows (SPOILER ALERT for anyone who lives under a rock), Edward takes off about 20 minutes into the movie, and most of the second act is devoted to Jacob’s transformation from a non-threatening 15-year-old with Christian rock hair into a perpetually shirtless action hero with a magical Native American werewolf gene.
In the process, Jacob completely makes the audience forget about Edward. The turning point comes after Bella has fallen off her motorcycle, and is bleeding from her forehead. “It’s just blood, no big deal,” says Jacob, who nonchalantly pulls off his shirt. Readers, there are screams!
And that’s just the prologue. The first time we see Jacob in his wolfpack uniform (shorts, shoes, no shirt, standing in the rain with steam literally rising from his body), the scene in the theater is like those old Beatles concert films, with girls descending into paroxysms of panic-attack joy. It’s becoming clear that we’ll only hear half the dialogue in any scene featuring Shirtless Jacob.
By the time (another SPOILER ALERT) Jacob and Bella have a soap operatic almost-kiss, the audience has decisively turned to Team Jacob. “Yes! Do it!” screams one lady. “Auuugh!” screams another. Edward can’t compete: when he takes his shirt off during a climactic moment in Italy, the theater is silent, except for one teenager speaking for all of us: “No, that’s nothing!”
The midnight audience loves the movie and applauds when it’s all over, but I definitely sense some minor disappointment with (SPOILER ALERT again) Bella’s final choice of male companion. Does this represent a sea change, Twilight fans? Are there any Edwardians out there who changed their allegiance after this movie to Team Jacob? And does anyone else have any good stories from a midnight show?"

YEAH!!!!!! Seriously, I don't think you should be able to help being Team Jacob. Edward can not compete at all. I'm glad when I watched it there wasn't any screamers, but you did hear everytime he had his shirt off hyterical, breathless giggles. I was right there with them hahah. The "almost kiss"...... wow that scene was so much better (read=hotter) then any of the Edward-Bella kiss scenes. And then Jake got mad.... why was that so appealing? I really don't know but it was the best thing ever. All I can say is, I love me some Jacob Black. I really want a poster, I've never wanted a poster of anyone before but...... what can I say? Oh and thinking back I definitly like Edward better in the first movie....
In case you want to see just why we are team jacob....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5j3742MMcc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8VKLaCiqQo



Anyways.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywgUCdefSW8
Watch this and tell me thats not ridiculous. I don't care if you are Republican, Democrat, Independent or Just Don't Care. That should have you outraged. My mouth dropped. That guy has been a representitive for 35 years, I believe. Really? Do people not just get it? He has also called his own district rascist and redneck. How insulting. How does he keep getting re-elected? Its unbelievable.

Age is just a number, baby

~WARNING~
IF YOU DON"T LIKE OR CARE ABOUT TWILIGHT YOU SHOULD PROBABLY NOT READ THIS.
Okay. I went to see New Moon and OH MY GOSH!!!!!! It was so so so so so so so good. Ten times better then Twilight(the movie). All the changes were non-aggregious and made it better, no lie. Jacob is totally ripped and super cute...words can not describe! ;) Edward.... is Edward, but he was still good, not my type but perfect for Bella. Kristin Stewart, I thought was fantastic. So funny story. I went to see it with my friend S.Sharp and she is Team Edward. (I'm team Jacob in the sense that i think Edward and Bella should be together, but I still think Jacob is better). We went and got our ears pierced together at W-Mart( THEY LOOK AMAZING!!!) and then picked out shirts.... cuz its a special occassion and all hahah. She picked out this shirt that has a feather type design... Its hard to explain but anyways its sorta Native American looking. Then she was wearing a leather jacket and grey boots. Very chic-femenine bikerish gorgeousness. I told her it was definitly a Team Jacob outfit and her sub-concious was definitly Team Jacob. She of course denied it. So after the movie, After this:



She told us that she thinks she is Team Swizterland now, if not Team Jacob. :D
I mean who can resist. T.Lautner did a really good job and I am sooo jealous that Miss Swift got him haha, but hey if someone is going to get him, there is no better girl than her, right?


Awwwwwww. How cute.
Anyways I had a fantastic day and I want to see that movie TEN more times, not even kidding.
BEST LINE EVER
"Age is just a number, baby"
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Facts....

So facts.

1. I'm a vegetarian. I'm not one of those PETA people though. I'm not crazy hehe. I really don't care if you eat meat. I just don't. But I eat seafood! I love crab legs. YUM.
2. I'm 16. I'm getting my license in 2 months. YES!
3. I love boys. I think they are fascinating. I just don't love them enough to get in a relationship with one. I've been there, done that... it didn't work out so well.
4. I'm getting my ears pierced again tommorrow and I'm going to see New Moon with my awesome friend S.Sharp. She is pretty cool :)
5. I do like Twilight, but I'm definitly not obsessed. (team sexi jacob)
6. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I have more then compensate. I love them dearly.
7. I went to Taiwan. I loved it!!!!
8. I'm homeschooled. Yep. See, I love it cuz.... 1. I don't deal with crazy people nearly as often unless you count my siblings, 2. I learn about things you public-schooled kids never even hear about, 3. Who drinks Hot Cocao at school? I DO!
9. I'm a Christian. I believe the Bible, all of it. Atheists? Agnostics? Not sures?I can and will answer your questions or I will find someone who can. Jesus Christ is My Lord and Savior.
10. I'm super passionate about what I believe. Thats why I started this blog.

Top 25

My top 25 most played on my ipod.....
I wanted to delete some stuff, but I didn't :)

Always Be My Baby- David Cook
So much better then the Mariah Carey version.

Juliet- LMNT
This song just makes me smile..... I mean duhhh

I'm A Believer- Smash Mouth
Shrek? Yeah :)

Where Is The Love- Black-Eyed Peas
What can I say? Its cool

Walk Away- Kelly Clarkson
I love the additude.

Addicted-Kelly Clarkson
This is haunting.

Bullseye- Aly &AJ
Wow. This is sorta embarrassing.

It Happens- Sugarland
The first time I heard this I would not stop listening to it. Its strangely addicting

One Rock And Roll Too Many- Syesha Mercado
Show tunes!!!

Respect- Aretha Franklin
Oh yeah, don't tell me you don't love it. Its a song that has to be listened to at full blast

What You Got- Colby O'Donis
This reminds me of Meredith at camp.... we tried so hard to remember the lyrics!!!

Sk8er Boi- Avril Lavigne
;) its a good life lesson


Mad World- Adam Lambert
Can we say wow?

Like Whoa- Aly & Aj
hehehe. Pure pop junkfood

I Don't Want To- Ashley Monroe
Her voice is so pretty

Fighter- Christina Aguilera
See, this is the way to handle the jerks.

In The Ayer- Flo Rida
Dance song!!!

You Belong With Me- Taylor Swift
Anthem of every girl who likes a guy that is taken :)

Picture To Burn- Taylor Swift
AWSOME!!!! Julia(my bestie for life) and I, its sorta our song for some strange reason lol

Another Heart Calls- AAR
Okay... this the BEST

Banana Pancakes- Jack Johnson
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
If you haven't heard it before GO LISTEN RIGHT NOW!

Live To Party- Jonas Brothers
I know. Its the Jonas Brothers. But have you heard the song? Its irristible

Love Like This- Natasha Bedingfield
Aww. So cute

One Girl Revolution- Saving Jane
Sound familiar? lol Its one awesome song.


And yeah my new favorite song? So Beautiful- Superchick
Empowering. CHECK!
Awesome.CHECK!
Stuck in My Head. CHECK!

Thoughts and stuff

A little about me. I read a ton. Probably an abnormal amount. Lucky for you though, because I have read the best and some of the worst and I will give you the benefit of my expertise! I listen to music lot. I listen to a little of everything too. No, I'm not someone who likes all the cool, indie, random stuff. Yeah, you know those people. The ones that ARE the music people and they kinda are snobby about it. They tend to make you feel bad if you like some occasional cheesy stuff like ....well, most pop and then you find yourself making excuses about why you have a Miley Cyrus song, and yes my little sister downloaded it..... and hey its catchy!!! I definitly don't make excuses anymore. I like what I like and I won't be ashamed of it. I'm always up for suggestions....and your thoughts :)

BOOKS YOU HAVE TO READ:
Year Of Secret Assignments- Jaclyn Moriaty
Its funny and entertaining. It made me smile
Tamar- Mal Peet
Amazing. You just have to read it. Its worth it, I promise. The end will have you going crazy.

MUSIC YOU SHOULD HEAR:
Beauty From Pain- Superchick
So its not new, but its one of my new favorites. Its a beautiful song.
You're Not Sorry- Taylor Swift
I'm a HUGE T.Swift fan. Her second album is amazing. It was the story of my life and this song especially hit home with me.
Another Heart Calls- All American Rejects and The Pierces
Okay. BEST song ever. It is so good on so many levels. I also love duets and this... well, I hope they never release it for radio because then it would get overplayed and then it wouldn't be my little secret and that would be sad.



So. I've been reading in Job lately and I love the verse that says
"The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised"
Job 1:20
Wow. Sometimes it is hard to let go of things even if God wants you to. So sometimes God takes those things/people away from you. I've been through that. It was the best thing for me and I'm grateful God arranged it all so perfectly even if it made me sad at the time. Now, looking on what I could be stressing over if I had held on.... well lets just say God is definitly all-knowing.

Well, there will be more to come but you know... I have a room to clean.
In Him.
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